I had a moment this week. Wyatt and I attended Dax's pre-school graduation on Monday. He still has one more year before he heads off to kindergarten (dang those December birthday's). But, I have to admit something, I don't really curse his late birthday as much as I lead on. In fact, I don't hate it all.You see, I have no problem that Dax is home with me for one more year. I have no problem that I get to listen to his silly, imaginative stories for one more year and have him quiz me on words that rhyme and counting backwards for one more year. I have no problem watching him grow 3 inches and gain 7 pounds in 10 months (thank you Mrs. Vanderpool for documenting that!) for one more year. I have no problem not having to rush him out the door for school in the mornings or not worrying about getting him to bed on time for one more year. I love it when he stays up late with me. I have no problem having one on one time when Wyatt takes his nap and Dax and I get to lounge around and talk...usually about dinosaurs, for one more year. I have no problem having his helping hands around for one more year. I have no problem letting the boys relationship flourish for one more year, because they are entering the cutest, nicest, let's-play-together phase and (cross your fingers) exiting the I'm-going-to-make-your-life-miserable phase. Thank goodness!
And I absolutely have no problem feeling like a mother hen for one more year protecting her little chick. Let's face it, my eyes maybe, slightly, possibly, welled up with tears as Dax received his pre-school diploma from his teacher and looked out at me and smiled so proudly. I smiled and waved back through the tears and I couldn't help but picture him 14 years from now, finishing high school and excited to start his life, on his own, without me. And my heart ached.
Time. Please stand still.




